Selected Poems from Terminal Love By Ali Darwish (2009)

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Never the Same

Not today; nor tomorrow

Shall ever be the same;

The past never was anyway;

And today cannot redeem the claim

That tomorrow will ever be free

From love forever bound to sorrow:

Love cuts deep like a sword

And burrows

In wounds half healed and harrows

In broken hearts with broken arrows;

Love rents and tears the battered mind

And the shattered spirit of love declined!

Not today, nor tomorrow

Shall ever erase or rewind

The feelings of love your essence ignites

Or the passion and elation your heavenly scent inflames!

All mortal wounds are healed with your smile;

And time stops at your feet;

Lost of rhythm and rhyme and beat!

But my wounded heart will not heal

As I feel the pain in exile!

Not today; nor tomorrow

Shall ever be the same;

The past never was anyway;

Until you came;

And today cannot redeem the claim

That tomorrow will ever be free

From pain forever bound to pain!

There Was A Time

There was a time when I had the world

In my palm;

When you were by my side;

I was so happy inside;

I was the richest man in the world;

Empowered by love beyond redemption;

By your presence;

And heavenly beauty!

There was a time

When I was so proud

Of being with you;

So madly in love with you;

With passion unparalleled;

And intensity unabated!

There was a time when I could see the world

So clearly through your eyes;

Life held no surprise;

I had all the treasures in the world

In your hazel eyes!

Now that you have gone;

My deepest fears have come true;

I have lost my fortunes;

Although I still love you!

No riches or treasures in the world

Make up for your loss;

I am a poor man,

Without you!

Tattoo

Never in my life

Did I ever want to have a tattoo!

Never believed in body adornment

Or in self-decoration;

Or in what some people might call self-mutilation!

Lovers came and went

And that was all they meant;

Not until I met you;

And fell in love with you;

I have tattooed you on my arm;

With washable ink;

Just toying with the idea

Of making you part of my physical being

And part of my material existence;

Perhaps it might work as a charm;

To bring you to me!

I might have one done one day

With indelible dye;

I might just try

Before I die of sorrow and rejection!

But one thing for sure:

I have tattooed you in my heart;

Because I love you more than you think;

And that is in permanent ink!

Does the Wind Feel Your Magic?

Does the wind feel your magic

As it carcasses your hair?

And does the night go into a trance

As your fragrance fills the air?

What heavenly beauty

Makes the world embrace

The moment of your charm

When you step outside into the world!

And what awesome joy your presence brings!

God made you of special stock —

And time stopped the clock

When you walked down the street!

Contrasting tunes with no strings

Fair from fair will never dare

To reach your sweet ankles!

O heavenly beauty!

Your magic will forever persist

And my heart will forever insist,

As you smile,

With every heartbeat,

Never to resist your charm!

O heavenly beauty

Let me die at your feet!

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Sleepless

Sleepless nights

And restless days;

And pain that I feel in many ways;

In my heart

And my veins!

When you are not here;

When you are not near!

All because I love you!

And you are far away;

Oh! How much your absence

Saddens my soul;

And how your presence

Gladdens my spirit!

Sleepless nights;

And restless days;

And pain that I feel in many ways;

In every part

Of my being

And every pore;

Pain that I have never felt before;

You are the only one I adore!

Sleepless nights

And restless days,

And pain that I feel in many ways;

In my heart

And my soul;

Everywhere I look;

I see your face;

Everywhere I turn

I hear your voice;

And I go out looking for you;

In places you used to go;

Perhaps I might feel your presence;

Or I might smell you;

And my heartbeats tell you;

As I hear your cadence

How much I love you and how much I miss you!

Sleepless nights

And restless days;

And pain that I feel in many ways!

And I pray for you

To come back to me;

O! My love!

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Twin Lover

If you had another sister like you;

Exactly like you;

An identical twin;

Or a perfect look-alike;

Exactly the same;

I would not love but you!

Even if I were so sure

That your twin would love me back;

And I would not have to work so hard to win her heart;

The way I try with you!

I would not trade in

My love for you!

I got you under my skin!

If you had an exact match;

A counterpart;

I would not part with you!

If you had a double

That would spare me the trouble

And the pain of my aching heart;

I would not want to detach

My soul from yours!

Your beauty lies in your uniqueness;

O beautiful princess!

Shadows

Standing in the shadows of today;

Waiting for you to smile;

Unable to move on;

Unable to part with love erstwhile;

Standing in the shadows of tomorrow

Unable to deal with the sorrow

Of not winning your heart;

Unable to stay

Or move on!

Totally paralyzed!

Standing in the shadows of life

In total strife!

Beyond Desire

Beyond the moment of desire

And the raging fire

In my heart;

Beyond the quivers in my bones

And the shivers that burn down my spine;

I still pine

To take you in my arms

And hold you forever;

To take one more look at you;

To tell you I still love you

Beyond the moment of desire

And the heart that doesn't tire

From loving you;

To fill my lungs with your scent

And then die;

How will I bear this pain when we part

Beyond the moment of desire

And painful feelings of torment?

Missing Your Smile

Missing your smile

And the gleaming light in your eyes,

Every time we meet it seems time so flies,

Leaving me alone

Waiting for the phone

To ring;

Hoping it will bring

The news so fast:

We will meet again

And my heart will regain

Its joyous past!

Wishing for the fate to change its course;

Praying for the gods this time my recourse

Will last!

Why I hated Monday

I used to hate Monday;

When Monday was the only day

We could not speak;

Or see each other;

Now I hate every single day of the week;

Because I do not see you anymore!

I used to hate Monday;

And everything in it;

When Monday was the day of separation;

And every other day of the week

Was a celebration;

Sitting next to you;

Talking to you;

Doing things with you!

Now I hate the whole calendar!

Terminal Love

Reflecting on recent events;

Asking myself a thousand whys and wherefores;

Unable to deal with the strength of pain

That your absence leaves in my heart;

Your long silence;

And the aching pulses in my veins;

The sorrow of waking up tomorrow

To find myself in a frightening void,

Again.

Unable to talk to you;

Unable to see you;

To smell your fragrance from afar,

Always missing you;

Missing your smile;

And those brief moments

Of mind and soul!

Your inner self and totality;

And being part of your world!

I stay up at night to avoid

The soreness of having to go through

Another day without you;

In total silence and despair;

I am terminally in love with you;

The kind of love that never dies;

The kind of love

that yearns for your company;

The kind of love that's pure and innocent;

The kind of love that makes souls sing in harmony;

I am dying without you;

Wasting away in ceaseless yearning

And endless burning!

Dying to see you one more time;

To tell you how much you mean to me;

And how your absence is eating me away;

Gnashing at every atom in my soul;

Tearing at my heart;

And destroying my foundation;

And every vital part

Of my mind;

Gnawing at my physical structures;

And my spirit!

Without you nothing else matters!

No love, no joy, no passion, no dreams, or tomorrow;

My life is in tatters;

Nothing really matters...

Without you!